Paranoid

I wonder if when I was ill I was so paranoid. (?)

Someone I knew thinks I'm "stalking" them because I noticed they'd changed their username on a messageboard. People write in such a distinctive way and of course have certain hobbies e.g., for me, you'd find me in the skiwebworld and smellyhorsey.com type places. ;-) If a "newbie" turns up and posts 20 things within 20 minutes sticks out like a sore thumb right? *sigh*

It's a bit sad though.

Work is weird right now - I'm supposedly doing some really complicated stuff but it's a piece of absolute piss. I think so many people are just fucking dumb.

I'm back in touch with a girl I went to school with - one of the ones I meant the other week when I said I should apologise for past misdeeds. She was seriously clever - always top of the class - me, her and one boy battled for #1 smart arse at our grammar school. Anyway, what I'm trying to say is that it's so refreshing to talk to her - I think I got caught in a bit of a trap where upon when I tried to form friendships with other women they were just so damned dim! Liz is a total "brainiac" but we certainly didn't see it as particularly unusual - we went to grammar school - everyone was bright. At uni, my King's College uncle came to visit and said that most of my friends were "dumb as rocks" - which was a bit harsh coming from an autistic nuclear physicist. Although fair I suppose.

What is going wrong with modern women? How is it possible they hold degrees and yet you can know them for years and the only thing they're able to discuss is clothes and make-up? Why are they degrading themselves? We don't need men to put us "in our place" when they're doing it for themselves. *sigh*